I want the least amount of damage as possible. [immediately.] I want...people to be okay. I want to protect my friends, and I want to do everything I can to keep everyone safe. Even if that means having to do things to save the world.
[but sometimes...you get tired. sometimes the fight is hard, and sometimes you lose a lot of people on the way. sometimes you have to remind yourself that it's worth it.]
[with frustration!! he gets the feeling it's not all directed at him??]
I'm asking what you want to do with your life! What you want outside of this stupid destiny thing! That part of your life doesn't go away just because fate decided to play games with you.
Yeah. [which. thanks. this is how he gets away with never telling anyone anything, so he kind of appreciates that. nevertheless...he does think about that for a moment.]
...it's complicated. It's always been a little complicated, but it got even worse somehow. That's all.
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[but sometimes...you get tired. sometimes the fight is hard, and sometimes you lose a lot of people on the way. sometimes you have to remind yourself that it's worth it.]
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That's not what I meant, and you know it.
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Then what? Are you asking if I want to be chosen or not? Because it doesn't exactly matter when there isn't much of a choice.
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[with frustration!! he gets the feeling it's not all directed at him??]
I'm asking what you want to do with your life! What you want outside of this stupid destiny thing! That part of your life doesn't go away just because fate decided to play games with you.
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I don't know, Catra. I'm still trying to figure that out.
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Just--
[. . . a huff]
Don't let this stupid destiny thing control you. Okay? Not that I care what you do, or whatever, it's just--
[she has. . . feelings about this kind of thing]
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...this is something I can't really talk about right now. So let's just...not. Okay?
[the "please" goes unsaid, but he's actually visibly uncomfortable with the topic.]
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Okay.
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Thanks. [he seems to mean it, at least.] ...maybe another time.
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I'm going to press you on it, or anything.
[in fact she may never bring it up again, unless he does. or the conversation naturally goes towards that topic]
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...it's complicated. It's always been a little complicated, but it got even worse somehow. That's all.